So, I've been a bit absent...

[jyl22075]

Normally, I don't write much about my person life in this blog, but... honestly, I could use some outside perspective. I'm not sure if I've ever told anyone that reads this, but I suffer from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. I know there are a lot of misconceptions about what it is and how people act when they have it. While there are varying degrees of it, for me it is nearly debilitating. There are days I can't leave the house because of it. It's really hard for me to deal with, because up until a few years ago, I was basically a pretty normal gal (normal is a relative term after all.) So, anyway, I'm in treatment for it, which hasn't helped and I recently switched to my fourth medicine. I think I kind of got my hopes up that it would help because the doctor was really encouraging and it hasn't. In fact the anxiety and panic I'm used to feeling seems to have increased instead of decreased. So all of this has put me in to a kind of funk... I haven't been sleeping much and I'm just feeling overall blech-y. I literally have had zero motivation to do anything at all... it's been kind of awful. If anyone has ever been through anything like this, I'd love to hear how you dealt with it, because I'm having a tough time right now.

 


And I realize I missed a day of Spin clips last week. It's still on my DVR and I'll get it clipped soon.